Modern Era Testimony

From Critic to Believer: A Radical Change

How Studying Scripture to Disprove It Led to Radical Conversion and Marriage to a Pastor

1999β€’πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡ΈSyracuse University, New York, USA

Syracuse University professor and critic of Christianity experienced radical conversion after studying Scripture to disprove it, leading to complete...

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β€œThe light the gospel gave me was ruinous; it ruined me for the life I loved”
Syracuse University professor testimony: Intellectual conversion through bible study. Critic of Christianity becomes believer.

Professor Critical of Christianity

In the late 1990s, Dr. Rosaria Butterfield was a tenured professor at Syracuse University, deeply involved in feminist and queer theory. A self-proclaimed leftist lesbian, she was known for her critical stance against Christianity. She described her initial feelings towards Christians as disdainful, saying, "As a leftist lesbian professor, I despised Christians."

Unexpected Intellectual Encounter

Her life took an unexpected turn in 1997 after writing an article critical of the Promise Keepers. Among the responses was a letter from Pastor Ken Smith, which stood out for its kindness and intellectual engagement. Intrigued, Rosaria accepted his invitation to dinner, initiating a series of conversations that would challenge her worldview. She recounted, "I met Ken Smith, the pastor who the Lord used in my conversion. I thought this man is really smart. He and his wife Floy welcomed me into their world."

Intellectual Conversion Through Bible Study

As she studied the Bible, Rosaria found herself at a crossroads. She approached it with an intent to dismantle its claims but instead found it compelling. "The light the gospel gave me was ruinous; it ruined me for the life I loved," she shared. In 1999, this intellectual and spiritual struggle culminated in what she described as a "train wreck" conversion, where she committed her life to Jesus, acknowledging, "I was a mess, and I committed my life to Christ because I believed He was true and real."

Life Completely Transformed

Her transformation was profound. Rosaria left her position at Syracuse, embraced a new identity in Christ, and married Kent Butterfield, a Reformed Presbyterian pastor, in 2001. She became a Christian author and speaker, advocating for biblical perspectives on sexuality and identity, emphasizing the importance of a transformed life. "I was converted not out of homosexuality, but out of unbelief," she clarified, underscoring the heart of her conversion.

Today, Rosaria resides in Durham, North Carolina, where she continues to share her testimony, giving Jesus the credit for the radical change in her life.

About This Testimony

What did God do?
Found Faith, Mind Restored
Where in life?
Friendships
How did it happen?
Through Scripture, Through Someone, Over Time

Source & Attribution

Curated by Doxa from Rosaria Butterfield's writings and interviews.

Sources

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The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert: An English Professor's Journey into Christian Faith
Rosaria Butterfieldβ€’2012β€’Primary Source
https://www.worldcat.org/title/secret-thoughts-of-an-unlikely-convert-an-english-professors-journey-into-christian-faith/oclc/798058018 β†—
πŸ“–
Openness Unhindered
Rosaria Butterfieldβ€’2015
https://www.worldcat.org/title/openness-unhindered/oclc/907291749 β†—

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