Chasing Hollywood
I came to Los Angeles to make it as an actress. I appeared in films like Tyler Perry's Duplicity and other productions. From the outside, I was living the dream.
But inside, I was falling apart. The pressure of trying to break into Hollywood was crushing me. I started having panic attacks—severe, debilitating episodes that left me unable to function.
So I did what so many people do. I turned to alcohol.
Drowning the Anxiety
The drinking started as a way to cope. Just something to take the edge off before auditions. Something to help me sleep after another rejection.
But it quickly became something I couldn't control. I was addicted, and the alcohol was only making my anxiety worse.
I knew I was spiraling. But I couldn't stop.
Thanksgiving Miracle
On Thanksgiving 2019, everything changed. I stopped drinking—but not by my own strength.
It was not by my own might, it was not by my own strength. Jesus took the desire to drink. He went into my brain and rewired it.
I can't explain it any other way. One day I was enslaved to alcohol, and the next, the chains were gone. Jesus delivered me.
Girls Gone Bible
Now I co-host a podcast called Girls Gone Bible with my best friend Arielle Reitsma. The name is a play on Girls Gone Wild—because we're a couple of girls who used to be wild.
We didn't grow up walking this walk. We didn't come from perfect Christian homes. But we had each other, and we chased Jesus together.
Our podcast has over 71 million YouTube views and 20 million Spotify listens. We talk about the messy stuff—perfectionism, mental health, brokenness—because that's real life.
People are spiritually hungry, emotionally hungry. And for the first time ever, people are encountering Jesus through online platforms and realizing: this is true life and fulfillment.
God brought us radical healing. And we want everyone to know He can perform miracles in their lives too.
